Went blog hopping as I was too tired from stretching and trying to improve my developpes. Ballet's getting more and more demanding and I am just sick. I am getting dismayed, tired and thoughts of giving up have been coming into my head. Believe me, I love ballet more than anything else, but it's just, it eats you up, you know? You push and bleed and drip but that alone doesn't gurantee you a spot in the world of ballet. A ballerina's dream; To bow before an applauding audience on a world class stage.
How many of them actually get it?
And the rest? They slug back to their families and friends as nothing but failures.
You gotta face it. It's much more realistic being a Pilot's wife.
I love ballet. Close; this is probably the only time I don't say 'love is fake'. Speaking of which, I went blog hopping and many people were struggling with boyfriend/girlfriend problems. It's all pretty comical to me. But for someone who doesn't believe in love, I sure seem to pity them a great deal.
'If he doesn't think you're worth the sacrifice then, he doesn't deserve you'
'Hey Girl, ditch the tears and pull yourself together because you know, you deserve much more than he is willing to give'.
Blog hopping has also made me realise that many people are not what they appear to be. I was pretty much shocked as I visited blogs I've never visited before, probably cause I thought it would be pretty much predictable. But, wrong I was. In school, I think, I look more of the 'I-like-to-use-vulgarities-when-I-type-and-I-am-always-emo-because-my-boyfriend-ditched-me' kind. But hahaha. Funny, I don't think my posts are anything like my looks. For one, I am not vulguar. That is given. For two, I am complicated, screwed up, really. But I don't dwell on relationships. Mainly cause I never love. When I get the vibe of ' I-want-you-to-chase-after-me' from a person that I kinda like, I switch off. I'm sorry, I don't do the chasing. Not because I think I am too good for it, but because I think the person isn't good enough. For someone who hates looking in the mirror because all I see are the imperfections, I sure love myself a lot. (:
I want happy.
If there's one thing I learnt from this world, it's
Lying To Get Your Way.
G'night.